Why I didn't go to Homecoming

i didn't go to homecoming this year. true, i am a senior, but i hate dances. it doesn't help that i still have ptsd from last years homecoming (worst date ever.) i simply hate the culture and tradition surrounding the dances at lone peak. everyone wants to be asked in some bullshit "cute" way and everyone needs to get all the cute pics for insta and they need to say hi to their friends to show off the piece of meat that they dressed up and brought to impress everyone. because thats how i feel people at dances treat each other, like a trophy to be shown off to others show that you are normal and that you do fit in, and that you are cool because "my date was the greatest." i hate the music that gets played and the fact that everyone knows the newest shitty club song force fed to them by the music corporations. i hate how everyone is obsessed with the doorstep scene and did you get some and why didn't you get any. i hate the stupid dress code and the fact that its because ldscorp seemingly runs lp. and i hate how i cant seem to find a girl that i want to take, why i haven't liked anyone for three years, and how i have to scramble to find a girl who i dont like and then i have to pretend that i am enjoying myself when all that i want to do is go home and be alone. i dont like dances...